Apparently, my feeling that Samhain wasn't quite over yet was more accurate than I could have imagined. The Ex texted an hour ago to tell me that my eldest cat had passed suddenly and unexpectedly.
Goodbye, Nikolai. I'm so sorry I never got to say it in person. I have missed you every day and will until I see you again. Next time, I will never, ever let anyone take you away from me.
The rage and pain in my heart right now would terrify any sane person.